What A Devil I Can Be
picture from pixabay, text added by me
I do not fear more pain, and I do not fear my death,
I fear my own rage inside, afraid I'd steal your final breath.
At the age of 12 I denied to all, everything you believed to be true,
Articulated passionately why I couldn’t believe, what meant so much to you.
In response you called me a monster, labeled me a demon and your devil.
Tortured me with your words and hate, and even in ways more medieval.
I bathed in your hatred, always letting it fill me with a rage.
Cut on myself to kill the fear, of the pain you made a cage.
At 15 I began to fight all day, every day for 5 years I fought.
Not with words but with my fists, and for years it was pain I wrought.
365 days a year, everyone who dared to cross my path,
Not caring what hate that I created, in the wake of my aftermath.
At the age of 20 I began to hate, everything I saw in my reflection,
The hate dictated who I was, Severed from all human affection.
I’d lost my will to feel at all, to even care about what i had lost,
Yet somehow the thought had come to me, I chose this at what cost?
Realizing I hated what I’d become, I’d become the thing I hate,
Someone who lashes out at others, because they did not share my fate.
I couldn’t purge the violence in me, but I tried to save it for those who deserve,
The ass kicking that’s coming to them, and could hold nothing in reserve.
When someone I know meets a bully or fiend, or someone full of greed,
I am the caged beast that they unleash, to punish who has a need.
Sometimes it is easy to know, others it is quite so hard,
To know who deserves a million cuts, or just a single shard.
I’m not saying I’m right or just, only that I’m a beast,
Who is trying to use his fangs for good, at least until I cease.
But it’s just beneath the surface, be careful or you’re gonna see,
If you try to make me your devil, You’ll see what a devil I can be.
Thanks for reading! hatred begets hatred, break the cycle >~<
this poem has been posted elsewhere online, BY ME :)
The operators doing V2K with remote neural monitoring want me to believe this lady @battleaxe is an operator. She is involved in the same discord groups around @fyrstikken and friends. Her discord is Battleaxe#1003. Shes in some groups with seemingly detached characters that dont even acknowledge the others in the group, looking oddly staged. She starts projects and does nothing with it or the delegations after its used to sway people. Like @steempowertwins does<------fake along with her @teamgood <------fake. No substance in her comments and has a following that adores her for what? Life coach she is not nor is she insightful with any meaningful skills to follow. Ruler of pixie dust maybe? I would like for someone to show me but probably wont out fear maybe? @fyrstikken groups around him down voted me into censored and not viewable on my accounts as soon I told what they were doing.
I cant prove @battleaxe is the one directly doing the V2K and RNM. Doing it requires more than one person at the least. It cant be done alone. She cant prove she is not one of the ones doing V2K because she cant and could care less. I guarantee she knows this is going around and still wont prove it because she cant. Many of us here can prove what they have been doing to survive the past 5 years. What does she live off of? It definitely isnt in public view here.
I was drugged in my home covertly, it ended badly. They have been trying to kill me using RNM with applied V2K mental games while revealing as many accessories to the crime as they can. I bet nobody does anything at all. Ask @battleaxe to prove it. I bet she wont. Pretty serious accusations to just blow off and leave the crypto community hanging in fear of this danger.
They want me to believe the V2K and RNM in me is being broadcast from her location. And what the fuck is "HOMELAND SECURITY" doing about this shit? I think stumbling over their own dicks maybe? Just like they did and are doing with the Havana Syndrome. They should start by looking at the communications between the top witnesses of Hive and the connection to @fyrstikken groups. Google his fucking name and see where his other interests lie around at least once maybe? The connections between @fyrstikken groups and all the exchanges built for Hive? Bet that would reveal some crazy ball less nutty shit. Homeland security should start preparing for their own incarcerations seeing how sloppy this was done. Patriot act my ass. Think we are really fools? Bad position your not getting out of. Dont be last to blow the whistle. Who will protect you?
People in and around @fyrstikkens groups are reckless and should have shown the proper media what they had before taking me hostage for 5 long torturing years and counting. That is a long time to wait for someone to die.
What would you say while having a gun pointed at your head from an undisclosed location? Have people find it? My hands are tied while they play like children with a gun to my head. Its a terrorist act on American soil while some yawn and say its not real or Im a mental case. Many know its real. This is an ignored detrimental to humanity domestic threat. Ask informed soldiers in the American military what their oath is and why nothing is being done. Nobody has I guess. Maybe someone told ill informed soldiers they cant protect America from military leaders in control that have ill intent. How do we protect locked up soldiers prevented from telling the truth from being treated as criminals? Not to mention civilians we let our leaders treat the same way. https://ecency.com/fyrstikken/@fairandbalanced/i-am-the-only-motherfucker-on-the-internet-pointing-to-a-direct-source-for-voice-to-skull-electronic-terrorism-terrorism
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