Siblings Rivalry

Out of all the things I expected this weekend, I never expected this I would come to a point where I will start doubting my existence and worth, I guess life does give us what we never ask of.

I get more pained when I am alone and my mind begins to analyze what I should have done at that point I was pushed to the wall, I guess it's the blessing of being an ambivert.

Here I am this Saturday evening, with my mind and heart all shattered to pieces because of my younger sibling.

It is not the first time we are having a rivalry as big as this, but the subject matter for our rivalry is a bit still touche for me because I knew I went all out to be there for my family but in the end of the day, I was bitten at my back and not just anyone, I mean, for this past two weeks plus, I have been taking a whole lot of shit but coming from my sibling broke the camels back.

It felt like I have been pierced so many times with a needle, it hurts so bad that my heart because I feel betrayed and disappeared. Funny enough, we've had worst disagreements than this but I still can't get over this particular dispute with my sibling.

Most people fail to realize that everyone has a breaking limit and when we get to that point of our breaking and can't take it anymore, we are likely to do some drastic things. I guess it's because they know among my family, I am the one with the long-patient, one who is likely to take a long time before I get to my breaking limit, and always avoid hurting people as much as I feel like especially if I am hurt.

I think this is going to take a long time before I can let go because I am deeply hurt and not ready to forgive or forget.