Ladies of Hive Community Contest #142 ~ My Uncertainty

Is there anything you see inside of yourself you're not sure of?

I do know I am a lady who loves good things and love to see people happy, I do know I am a lady who still believes in love and loves to watch people find true love, I mean, I pray that for my family, friends and everyone I come in contact with, everybody deserves to find true love, to love and be loved.

I love to see two people planning to spend their entire life together as a couple, I love to see people tie the knot, I love to watch them smile while they take their vows on the altar, and I celebrate in their joy and happy moment

I also wish I could be lucky with love someday for myself because I don't easily open up my heart, as a result of experiences and environment but of all the things I know about myself one thing I ain't sure of is If I am ever going to be ready to walk down the aisle someday to vow and plan to spend my whole living life on earth with a man.

I am still not sure if I am ready for that to happen in my life, still not sure if I am capable of going through with it, I have gotten a lot of talk about it, but it doesn't mean I don't believe in love, relationship, or marriage. I know there are thousands of good men and good marriages out there but the truth is I am not sure marriage is meant for me.

I feel marriage is a lot of stress and responsibility, one I am not sure I am willing to go through but still not sure that decision of mine is so true.

Sometimes I see myself confused and on the defense on this particular decision, I know very well that I love love and love to see people fall in love and get married at the end of the day but then why does this conflict arise when it comes to me? This has been my uncertainty for the longer part of my life since I came of age.

This is my entry to the Ladies of Hive Community Contest #142.