Mummy, where are you? | Story

Night was falling, when suddenly a loud bang, accompanied by the noise that instantly became a long silence, it was in that same silence where I fell by your hand and I began to see you and feel safe.

From the first moment you looked at me with love, you didn't care how beautiful, big or small I might be, you only dedicated yourself to love me and you longed so much to have me, that when I was in your arms you didn't want to let me go.

I cried night after night and only your company calmed me. The warmth of your arms gave me security and your kisses were always my relief.

I was growing up and I was learning everything from you, you never stopped seeing me with love, you never changed, you looked like an Angel eternally full of brightness, which I couldn't stop looking at.

In every achievement I searched among the people and finding your face I told you with signs, that this was me, your pride and I did everything for you as a reward for your great love.

Few years had passed since my arrival in your life and you already loved me from day one with madness, being able to do anything for me.

I was running through the mountain of my memories, while your arms were outstretched and when I reached you, you were gone, I didn't understand what was happening, I was just a 3 year old boy desperately looking for you.

-Mummy, Mummy, where are you?

My eyes couldn't find you, many people were running from one side to the other trying to protect me, the lights of the cars didn't let me see well and I never felt safe, since I could only find myself in your arms.

-Mummy, Mummy, where are you?

Nobody gave me explanations, they just ran, the heavy blow had caused an accident where I was going and to protect me you gave everything you had but you left me without the most valuable thing for me, which was you.

With you the caresses were gone, I could no longer find your gaze, the one that always looked at me with real and pure love, I kept looking for you but I only found questions without answers in the mind of a confused little boy.

That day I didn't find you, they took me home, I didn't sleep for several nights, I only wanted my mum and I could never again feel the security that your arms gave me and the relief that your kisses gave me.

I grew up without you, far from the world, a world that took my Angel away from me, that extinguished her brightness and that although you left being a heroine, you left me alone. More than a hero, I needed you and I don't reproach you for anything, I reproach life, which is sometimes unfair and leaves children alone.

"Mummy, mummy, where are you?"

I keep asking myself, I close my eyes tight and open them wanting to wake up but I can't, I don't want to dream anymore, I want to wake up to find you and when I climb the hill your arms embrace me.

Iba cayendo la noche, cuando de pronto hubo un golpe fuerte, acompañado del ruido que al instante se convierte en un largo silencio. Fue en ese mismo silencio donde caí tomado de tu mano y comencé a verte y sentirme seguro.

Desde el primer momento me miraste con amor, no te importaba que tan hermoso, grande o pequeño pudiera ser yo, tu solo te dedicaste a amarme y anhelabas tanto tenerme, que cuando estuve entre tus brazos no querías soltarme.

Lloré una y otra noche y solo me calmaba tu compañía. El calor de tus brazos me daba seguridad y tus besos eran mi alivio siempre.

Fui creciendo y todo iba aprendiendo de ti, tu no dejabas de verme con amor, nunca cambiabas, parecías un Ángel eternamente lleno de brillo, al cual yo no podía dejar de mirar.

En cada logro buscaba entre la gente y hallando tu rostro te decía con señas, que ese era yo, tu orgullo y todo lo hacía por ti en recompensa de tu gran amor.

Pocos años habían pasado desde mi llegada a tú vida y tu ya me amabas desde el día uno con locura, siendo capaz de hacer cualquier cosa por mí.

Corría por la montaña de mis recuerdos, mientras tus brazos extendidas y cuando llegué a ti, ya no estabas. No entendía que sucedía, tan solo era un niño de 3 años que te buscaba desesperadamente.

—¡Mamá, mami, ¿dónde estás?!—

Mis ojos no te hallaban, muchas personas corrían de un lado a otro, buscando protegerme, las luces de los autos nos me dejan ver bien y más nunca me sentí seguro, ya que así solo me podía hallar entre tus brazos.

—¡Mamá, mami, ¿dónde estás?!—

Nadie me daba explicaciones, solo corrían, el golpe fuerte había causado un accidente donde yo iba y tu por protegerme entregaste todo lo que tenias pero me dejaste sin lo más valioso para mí que eras tú.

Contigo se fueron las caricias, ya no encontraba tu mirada, esa que me veía siempre con amor real y puro, no paraba de buscarte pero solo encontré preguntas sin respuestas en la mente de un pequeño niño confundido.

Ese día no te encontré, me llevaron a casa, no dormí en varias noches, solo quería a mi mamá y nunca más pude sentir aquella seguridad que me daban tus brazos y el alivio que me daban tus besos.

Crecí sin ti, alejado del mundo, un mundo que me quitó a mi Ángel, que apagó su brillo y que aunque te fuiste siendo una heroína, me dejaste solo. Más que un héroe yo a ti te necesitaba y no te reprocho nada, le reprocho a la vida, aquella que a veces es injusta y deja niños solos.

—¡Mamá, mami, ¿dónde estás?!—

Me sigo preguntando. Cierro mis ojos fuertes y los abro queriendo despertar pero no puedo, ya no quiero seguir soñando, quiero despertar para hallarte y al subir la colina tus brazos me abracen.