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I always feel like everyone has this fear of the unknown when it comes to declaring our feelings. Personally, I've had it bad with relationships so whenever it comes to new relationships I'm always skeptical if it will last, if the motive is genuine and if the feelings are real.

Yet again I am in a tight corner. I'm at war with myself. I'm asking myself should I say how I feel or not? Is this real or not?
Something bothers me though. Why do some men ask a lady how they feel about them when they haven't declared their feelings first? But does it even matter who says it first or not?

Only that oftentimes I have been aware of a guy treating a girl badly just because he's aware of how she feels about him and I don't want that. It's for this reason that I think I'll be losing someone who's very special to me, whom I care so much about but I'm doing a good job concealing it and he feels I don't care.

Ali Gatie - What If I Told You That I Love You

It's not saying how I feel about a person that's hard is what he'll say in return that scares me, I am a little bit scared of uncertainties.
Why should I show that I care too much about a guy who hasn't declared his feelings for me? A guy who isn't ready to commit to me? Sometimes he asks if I love him and I say not the romantic way because what's the essence of saying I love you when I'm not sure you love me too?

Let's think about it. I don't know about every other person but I really do mind who I declare my feelings for. It would be sad to tell a guy how I feel about him then have him feed me that crap pity story of how much of a good person I am, how I'm very important to him but he's not good enough for me, I deserve better....I don't want that. I don't want a one sided love, I don't want to get hurt and trust me, the pain that comes with declaring your feelings for someone who doesn't feel the same way for you hits differently that's why I'm still sitted here wondering what the reply would be if I declared my feelings.

Ellie Goulding - Love Me Like You Do

I equally have another problem with a guy saying he loves me and yet they don't act like it. A lot of people mistake lust for love and it's not so easy spotting the wolves in sheep clothing if you have a really great body. So contrary to what my friends think that I'm single on purpose or I have high taste when it comes to men or I'm playing the hard to get game, I just want to get it right. Some people don't mind testing many waters with their bodies before finally settling down but I'm just one person that's not wired like that.

I'm not hoping that the first time I'll fall in love it will lead to my happy ever after, no, I think that happens mostly (if not only) in fairy tales but then again I don't want to be like a bird perching on a lot of trees before building a nest on one.
And though my friend (the guy who this post is about) thinks otherwise, I actually do have feelings for him, but he's also not exactly the kind of guy I want to be with. All I want is simple, if a man loves me as he claims he should act like it. I should be able to hear, see and feel. I can't just be hearing a man say I'm his light, his life, I give meaning to his existence and all those lines they feed ladies but I can't say the same for him too. The task is simple - love me like you do!

Future,Drake, Tems - I Will Wait For You

It's only quite unfortunate that though sometimes we've stayed with people through their days of lows and nothing, we've assisted them in everywhere possible, encouraged, motivated, supported them. When they finally reach their peak it's no longer us they want.

The saddest thing is that oftentimes our heart betrays us. Even when we know this isn't who we want because we can see all the red flags, all the inconsistency, the lies, the excuses, everything but our heart chooses to wait.

This is just like the case of myself and the guy I am not willing to declare my feelings for. Sometimes I feel like we have a thing going, next I'm not sure anymore. I clearly do not want a love that's not certain, that's not consistent, that's not assuring, that's not stable, yet rather than forget about this human and walkaway as my head is telling me, my heart is singing "I will wait for you"

Somewhere deep down in my heart I'm hoping that there'll be a change, he'll begin to do better, he'll declare his feelings for me without mincing words, he'll stop with the excuses, it wouldn't just be me asking questions in my head if it's real or not, I'll see and feel it for myself. But until this happens or until I can fully convince my heart that this particular love isn't for me, I'll wait.