TIRED BUT SATISFIED: GROWTH PROCESS!

Wawuu! Sunday has been filled with a lot of highs and one low. Today, I have been busy and all with helping my cousin with preparing for school.

The highlight of today was meeting with @pappyelblanco. I had been anticipating it but yet felt nervous for some reason. Maybe because I hadn't gone out with the opposite sex in a public setting in almost a year. And we went to Domino's!

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The Ice cream was just amazing. I had toppings of dark chocolate and ended up with a sugar rush, hence this post😂.

I and @pappyelblanco got talking and he told me he was impressed by what I have done and how far I have gone (I felt really appreciated) and was hoping to get motivated when he meets me. I remember him saying maybe I should just disturb him everyday to write, send him reminders like some kind of coach.

I did not find the idea bad at all. In fact, I have been thinking of starting a little community just close to my place. My mom has been some kind of advocate telling people what I do and encouraging them to come onboard. It's amazing how much faith she has in me because some moms wouldn't condone their children quitting their job just to do what I am doing now.

I have been approached one too many times by young teens and mothers curious about Hive and it gave me an idea.

I think I would just gather them all in one place and tell them what it is about. My Mentor and his wife could be special guest of honor. LOL. What am I saying? I don't know quarter of what they do about hive so they are the best candidates.

Just think about this, the hunger of this people need to be fed. And I would feed it but there is no rush. I feel it is my way of contributing to this wonderful community and also helping myself grow in the process.

Today I was just thinking of the new discoveries I made on Hive related to the Palnet community. I am still taking my time to explore and understand their rules because I also want to grow and give back.

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I believe that I am still at the growing stage, yes but I am very much eager to learn. Hive is so much bigger than I imagined and I keep learning everyday.

Anyway, I can't thank @belemo enough for the gift of my first ever summoners spellbook. This wins would keep piling up as I go into gaming and make it my battle field. One thing about me, if I really want something, I get it. I am ambitious like that.

He has already forwarded the HBD worth the spell book and I am going to make noise in Splinterlands for a while. Are you ready?

Now, I mentioned having a low today. I kind of had a panic attack while at Domino's. Pappy had left for a while to settle some issues because the system wasn't working, so I was left alone. I felt like I was drowning in a sea of numerous eyes and my heart began to race. My hands felt moist and they shook and all I could think was "God No".

I haven't had those in a while and I got terrified that I might actually faint or perhaps lash out like I always do which would somehow embarrass the person I was with. What did I do?

Go to music like I always did. I immediately threw on my earphones and hit play on Alone by Alan Walker ft. Ava Maxx.

I felt everything calm again. I also thought in that moment that being disconnected for so long from people and society might have triggered it. Time to get out of that comfort zone again.

Well, that is it for today. Tomorrow look forward to a detailed experience of my Splinterlands quest and also, I hope to complete my Newbies Initiative Task by Tuesday.

All I can say right now, Hive has been a total blessing! Stay beautiful, Stay safe!!

THANKS FOR READING!!!

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