A lot of **I's* in one post || My Journey to learning about pHBD , PolyCUB and CUB Finance

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I wasn't going to write anything tonight, I really actually wanted to, but then out of nowhere my mood didn't just swing, it hit a pole. Like out of nowhere, it just, I don't know...a thought just came to my mind and kapoosh!!, My mind's all sour.

I spent the whole of today in church rehearsing for a program we have coming up. I'm not usually the churchy type but this week I decided to make sacrifices and do something to atleast draw people to God, because that's what the performance is going to be all about.

I got home really late and decided to just chill and then create some quality time for hive.

I guess there's a lot of I's in this post already.

I really don't know what happened or where the thought came from but, I just wished I was a lot more financially buoyant. I know I've found Hive now and if I'm consistent, my life is going to change in the next few years but then I just couldn't help but feel bad for all the opportunities I've missed and all the people I couldn't help.

Am I being too unreasonable right now?..I should be strong and fight for what I want but at times like this I feel weak. I read a lot of successful people's post and feel worse. Look at Elon Musk, dude's outrightly bidding to buy one of the best social media platforms ever.

I shouldn't do the mistake of comparing myself with others, instead I should be reading all the recommendations about PolyCUB, pHBD and farming, LP, my LeoFinance friends were so good enough to help me with. I should be looking for ways to better my life, increase my investment ratio, and make life changing financial decisions.

But instead I'm here pondering about how my life should have been. How I couldn't help a friend who just went through surgery and couldn't even help her with the hospital bills, how I made another friend cry because I've been so hostile towards humans.

I shouldn't be writing this, but I guess it'll act as a reminder, a reference point to the days when I was less of myself, when I was pretty much nothing. This would be for record keep, for when I eventually make it and as I think about it, I'm renewed with more courage. By this time next year I'll be a changed man, and I'll read this post and laugh, phew!, I really did lose it, I'll say to myself.

I don't know, I'm trying to explore all the possibilities to make it come to pass. If you have a laptop you're not using again, I'm in dire need of one or better still I'll buy one soon, I just have faith and so much believe in LeoFinance.

I'm sorry you had to read all this but this is all I have now, you and everyone on hive are the only ones I can share my deepest feelings with, afterall, even if you judge me, I'll still be happy I earned from these words.

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I've been reading a lot about most of the crypto terms used here, I really want to understand and make use of that knowledge subsequently. I want to appreciate all of you all who made time to recommend articles for me, thank you for making me feel loved, thank you LeoFinance ❤️✅.

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_{Thank you for reading this, if you enjoyed it or it connected to you in a way, I invite you to drop a comment I'll be glad to reply❤️}