Painting a Positive Self

"Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere(*)" .... probably this is the reason why I have never left our good old Europe? ;-)
Oh, that was wrong now. Sorry dear me-bee-dree-my, in the instructions for today's dreemport challenge post it said not to make a joke out of it.
Now I was actually a whole day ahead of all the other dreemcials because of my "out of ranking status". Nevertheless it is hard for me to write this post. A look at the other participants might have inspired me, but: now that I start writing these lines, no one seems to have posted yet except whywhy, that makes me suspect I'm not the only participant having trouble with this.

Troubles with what?
Describing yourself only in positive words, without any irony.
Troubles with this.
I think as far as irony and cynicism go, I'm pretty good. Is that a positive quality? Or is it rather something I use to hide myself behind...?

Oh Dreemy and Snook, you have put a real challenge in front of us. Of course, I know how important it is to have a positive self-image and it's also something I preach to others all the time. I also know very well how important words are, how much they want to be chosen wisely, but what about myself?

Which brings us right into the topic, because who planted this thought in my head that one should have an all-around positive image of oneself in order to successfully go through this life? Isn't this the whole problem?
The seemingly negative things are also a part of us and maybe the only mistake we all make is to divide things into positive and negative.

So, with my positive self-image it doesn't look so good. I am probably my own biggest critic. But is it really me, or is it a part of me that has taken the statements and expectations of many other people as a yardstick and an excuse not to be the shining positive self that each of us has hidden somewhere inside?

So let me try to paint a positive picture of myself:

MY POSITIVE RE-INTRODUCTION

I am a dark-colored strong soul, full of wonderful colors, which are interwoven with each other. So I radiate calmness, which I try very much to transfer to others. I love my incredible sense for harmony and my sense of how things could be, if only we let them be.
This is reflects in my great love for music, but also for designing spaces, getting involved with plants and animals, my love for painting and writing.

I love to help and support people. Sometimes I seem to be able to do that in a very fascinating way, just listening to others or asking what seems to be the right question every now and then.

I am probably already very close to this newly modern term "highly sensitive". I don't know, because I never gave much for categorizations. I see that nothing is only black or white. I wasn't taught that either, I was like that from an early age.

Even in school I liked this too fat, stupid, weird guy that nobody else liked. For me he was absolutely okay, because he was just the way he was. And so I never had any problems with him.
Later on, I had more problems with people who have this "pretending to be something better" mentality. But this is probably just another side of myself, because honesty and sincerity in interpersonal encounters are more important to me than some oh so important seeming status.

For me, calling myself an out-of-the-box thinker is a positive thing - yes, you can see that quite well in the way I started this post, can't you? I like to make my own thoughts. And for the most part, I don't agree with the majority of my peers on that. Nevertheless, yes, they are my thoughts and my view of things and in fact I am proud to have this ability. Proud that I don't always have to simply believe everything I'm told. But not by necessarily having to convince others of my view, no, everyone is welcome to think what he wants.

I am a daydreamer - Oh yes, this term probably describes me best. Actually, I love nothing more than just having time to follow the thoughts, stories, and images I'm drawn to when I have the chance.
@snook has referred to this as a "being positively lazy". I see this as a bit like the way the ancient Greeks found truth in their hours of leisure, or the gaze of a shaman in a trance, who can also see things without having to have scientific proof.

To Snook's questions from the Positive Un-Lazy Contest:

Where are you the happiest?
When I can just be with myself. It doesn't matter where or in which environment. It can be in a crowd as well as on a lonely mountain top.
Admittedly, I usually find this state when I am alone.

What positive traits can you bring to a team?
On the one hand my ability to mediate and to strengthen the team in itself, as well as the ability to summarize things to the point.
On the other hand, of course, my creative ideas.

What has been/is your favorite positive surprise about Hive?
There are a few people who have become incredibly important to me and my life. Thank you guys for being there, I love you!

What is something positive about you that some might see as negative?
Everything. I mean there will always be someone who sees something as negative. My creativity - useless? My daydreams - crazy? My sense of harmony - dreams?
Oh, this list could be endless, after all, after a few years of struggling to remain myself in a totally different thinking environment, I have come to the conclusion:

You can't please everyone, so you've got to please yourself!

I believe that I am very special. In fact, I believe every human being, every animal, every tree, every single particle of our planet is very special and unique.

(*) QUOTE "Good Girls Go to Heaven, Bad Girls Go Everywhere" is a booktitle from Jana U. Ehrhardt 1997
all pictures and photos by @beeber
mostly translated with www.deepl.com (free version)