#LOH Contest 158/ When Will I Be Free?

Dear Diary,

I'm glad to be able to write this tonight. And I'm grateful for each day.
I'm grateful for the good days, I'm grateful for the not so good days and I'm grateful for the very dark days.
I'm grateful for every breath that I take.

Today was just like my usual typical day at work. I had a few classes and for the remaining hours at work, I sat down, doing some marking.
I felt strange, felling tired in the morning but I continued my work.

I felt a little bit of pain in my toes and I thought it was as a result of my shoes and my toe nails. The pains kept on going and coming so I had to remove my shoes 👠 and continued my work.

I spent a little extra time at work because of some calculations I had to do for the head of my department.
When I was done, I was still feeling very weak. I went straight to my kids school, to pick them and we headed back home together.

After I had my bath, I started feeling a little feverish. The weather was hot but I didn't think much of it. Immediately I lay on the bed just for a while before going to get dinner ready, I began to feel pains in my legs.

Immediately, I know something was wrong. I just couldn't hold back my tears. Why this pain again? why today? When am I going to be free from all these? Will I ever be Free?
Were the questions that flooded my mind.

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My 5 year old son immediately covered me with the duvet and started massaging my feet with a balm, how thoughtful of him.
I know he would grow up to be a very caring fine man.

My husband came in and helped with the balm. My son helped me wear the socks and locked the windows to make the room warm. I started feeling the pains in my hands as well. They brought me hot tea☕ and gave me my strongest pain killer. After about 20 minutes I was able to eat.

Before I slept off, I thought about anything I might have done wrong during the day to invite the pains again but I couldn't find any.
I wore pants 👖 and jacket 🧥 to work today. I didn't expose myself in any way, so, why this?

Could it be that no matter how hard I try to prevent the crisis it will still come? What else can I do?
I felt relieved when I woke up now and I decided to use the opportunity to put this down.

I don't want to think about it anymore. I just want to live each day as it comes, pamper myself, plan for my kids and thank God for every opportunity I get. I'm not letting go.

This is my response to Ladies of Hive weekly contest 158
Thanks for stopping by, I really appreciate you.
Yours truly @aunty-tosin 💕💕💕