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It has been months since our family was a "happy" one.
When me and my dad started our biggest fight ever last October 17th, 2022, our lives changed for the worst. Till now, we haven't been talking for almost a year now. We are both in that "silent war."
We live in one house but whenever we pass by, we ignore each other. Like we're some kind of strangers. We don't regard each other's existence anymore.
Idk. I just want things to go back to normal. But I don't want to be the only one who wants forgiveness. My dad is a VERY prideful person. I doubt he would come to me first and say sorry. LOL. That'll be the day.
I won't say sorry first either. Even if he's my dad, he should respect me as a person. He done me wrong, I done him wrong too. Since he's the "matured" one, he should be the one to first come to me.
Well, this is both of mom's fault since they never shaped me, or taught me how to be humble, or brave, or speak up the truth. What they only taught me?
To be silent when they're angry
To accept that they are "always" right, and I'm "always" wrong
To keep in mind that I owe my life, my education, my everything to them. Even on the food and shelter they provide.
To never talk back or fight back even when you're right.
To never ever listen to any but them cause they're my parents and they're the only ones I can run to.
And many more...
Sighs.. Idk dude... This is neither a house nor a home anymore. Its more like a prison, a suffocating prison.
Since I do not know the cause of the quarrel between you two. All I would say Forgive your parents for not being able to love you the way you needed. Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does change the future.
Forgive your parents, heal yourself!
I would say time heals and just let it happen. When both of you are ready, it will happen. When you force things, it will not get any better. I also really wish you could communicate with them openly as to not build any more resentment, but sadly if you are raised that way it's really really hard to just talk openly. If you can talk to them through text, it might be better and do it if you want to. But tbh personally if the other doesn't want to ask forgiveness I would say "fuck that 😂" but I'm also torn with "life is short".
I don't know what your full experiences are and only you can judge the situation, but remember you deserve RESPECT as well. You DON'T owe them anything. They chose to have a child and it's their responsibility to raise you.
I'm also going low contact with my parents and no contact atm with my dad. I just don't tolerate abuses anymore.. But I speak like this cos I'm in a better situation and comfortable place. I hope you can find a safe place as well and peace for yourself. We're here if you need us bai <3
I don't know a lot about the scenario or the environment you are in but if your dad is someone who you value as a person, it's a good idea to get the situation remedied. If you or he gets hit by a car tomorrow, the other one is going to be crushed by the loss and the lack of an ability to get past the situation.
If you are indifferent to your dad, just let it go on.